I hate it when life can't really get much worse... and it still does. My instant reaction is to be apathetic and pity myself... but as soon as I actually think, I grab onto Christ, which is right where I need to be. I know his goal is to just push me closer to him... and I do want that, to be constantly closer, I just really dislike the method thus far. God is good, he said that. He doesn't lie and he keeps his promises, he said that too. He said that he wants my best and has a plan for me... I choose to believe him. No, I don't see much from him, but it's not faith if you're using your eyes. I'm not content... I'm working on that. But for now...

Psalm 46:10, Isaiah 40:31, Psalm 27:14, Psalm 33:20, Psalm 33:7, Psalm 130:1-6, Isaiah 30:18, Isaiah 64:4, Lamentations 3:24 and 26, Hosea 12:6, Micah 7:7, Romans 8:23 and 25, Hebrews 9:28, Jude 1:21...

They all talk about waiting, focusing on God and our hope for what's to come, How he's doing great work in and through us... and just being content in everything, suffering for Christ. I'm trying... I really am.

Well, Merry Christmas, Happy Birthday-ish to Jesus, and Peace out thug scout!