Craaaaaaap!!!

Shoot! Here comes good guy number 2. I hate HaTe HATE telling really good guys no. I always feel like I'm ripping their heart out (figuratively). This is the second really good guy that's approached me about a relationship aaaaand is a whole lot more like a brother in my eyes. I'm looking for a guy, don't get me wrong... but I'm not ever gonna tell a guy yes if i know i'm going to tell him no later. *sigh* I could honestly see myself getting married tomorrow... that is, if i found the right guy. (disclaimer: I wouldn't marry a guy that i had just met) I'd love nothing more than to marry young, after all, I've only got 10 more months 'til i can legally get hitched. (another disclaimer: i don't want to get married just to prove something, get out of something, or get away from something.) Some friends of mine and I were actually just talking about this topic yesterday, this and more... sensitive topics. I've now had two friends tell me out of the blue that they could see me getting married and having kids young... I find that interesting. A friend of mine just made a really big mistake, and doesn't think it was one. It tears me up... but there's not much i can do about it, i already gave said friend my take on it. epic epic fail. hmmm, if i only had a mind eraser...