Razor Blade

I just caught my cat playing with a razor blade... can you say not safe? haha but random me, i was thinking philosophically about the whole thing in relation to my life. In many ways, at least that i'm seeing in my own life, dancing on a razor blade almost seems like the safest place to be... is it? probably not, but like i said... that's how it appears right now. Going the dangerous route, because there's a slight chance it'll make you more happy in the end, in contrast to going the safe route, and always being safe, bored, and only slightly happy. My parents think i'm something of a fool when i tell them my plans... for reasons like money, and possible failure. So i've somewhat stopped telling them what i want to do, i know it'll get shot down. They got mad at me the other day when i wouldn't tell them what i wanted to do with my life. I was as respectful as i possibly could be, while telling them that they'd just have to wait and see. I understand now the people that i've been completely baffled by their secrecy... in some ways it's from fear, in others from knowledge, and in others... a little bit, it's from faith... Faith that as long as they're striving for god's goal, that everything will work out.

Commit to the LORD whatever you do,
   and he will establish your plans. - Proverbs 16:3

 Meh... I read a verse yesterday that was AWESOME!!! but i've now spent an hour trying to find it, and i can't remember for the life of me where it is... but it basically says that if our plans and ideas are done and thought with the right heart, aimed toward god, that there's no way we can do something that god doesn't want us to. So if i'm on a really sharp razor blade, and god wants me there, then i'm more than willing to be here for a while because i know it'll all turn out good in the end. and if god puts me through some really darn hard stuff, i'll make it through, i already have made it through alot, and i know now that he's only let me go through what i've been through because he knows i'm strong. Strong enough to stay with/come back to him, no matter what i go through. I may have a more modest purpose than what i hope, heck, i may even be a chamber pot. but if that's what the potter wants, then so be it. I know now that i'm strong for a reason.

But who are you, a human being, to talk back to God? “Shall what is formed say to the one who formed it, ‘Why did you make me like this?’” Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for special purposes and some for common use? - Romans 9:20-21

No test has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tested beyond what you can bear. But when you are tested he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it. - 1 Corinthians 10:13

Night... er... Morning,

Alanna